Monday, December 31, 2007


Checklist on how to make Janet's 2008 better than 2007:

1. New look (check, with my new haircut)
2. New job (check, either with NY or TO or UK)
3. No more dwelling on the past (what's done is done)
4. Getting over people (so over it that its burnt to a damn crisp)
5. Meeting new, lovely boys (god, NY resolution)
6. Learning that the only person I need to prove anything to is myself (still working on that on)
7. Paying off some debt (let's pray for this one)
8. Re-inventing my faith
9. Stop thinking everyone is STUPID and ANNOYING
10. Learning to actually let my feelings out (without the consumption of alcohol)

Some items will be easier than others, while some are damn near impossible (ie. # 7-10) but I will try. I am happy 2007 is over since it was officially the worst year of my 28 years and am truly excited to start fresh with all new opportunities. As I inch closer to 30, I am no longer scared but happy that I am leaving my 20's behind!

Friday, December 28, 2007

And Life Goes On...

So, Christmas is over and even though I didn't feel like celebrating it, it was fine. Spent time with my family and friends and got to play the new Rock Band which is about 100x better than Guitar Hero. I also got to watch my aunts, uncles and parents play Wii which was awesome!!!

Partied with good friends, drank too much, ate too much, definitely didn't sleep enough and am still working!!! I never got to see one of my friends that was here from New York but I'm okay with that b/c I'm going back (seriously) very soon and something very, very bad happened to a girlfriend of mine so we vented all night on wed. that turned into thurs. but was fun and I love her and she is always good times. I feel her pain but know it'll all work out!!

Anyways, going out with lovely Jessica tonight for some good times!!! I'm feeling better about my life now...yeah!

Friday, December 21, 2007

Is This What I've Become?

So I have come to the conclusion that I am 100% addicted to the internet, email, blackberry, etc. I check my emails at least twice every 10 minutes refreshing the page, when away from a computer I have them bounce to my blackberry, I check my work emails at midnight and tried to hook that up to my blackberry (without being asked to) but have to wait until I get into the NY office. Even when lying on a beach in Mexico, I think constantly of checking my emails and work emails to see what's going on. Thank God for blackberrys!! This video made me laugh because I wonder what I would do...

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

An Ode to La Dolce Vita

No, I'm not saying my life is beautiful, I'm saying goodbye and farewell to my Dolce Vita booties. Somehow I broke the heel last night (look at how thick and huge so no clue). I also don't have the heel since I didn't realize until I got out of the cab that it was broken!! This sucks large considering that they were expensive and I've literally worn them about 10 times due to the crazy pain they give me!!

But alas, someone out there loves me...actual Joel loves me. The wonderful customer service rep is sending me a new pair as soon as I return my broken ones. The ironic part is...if I was in NY I could just GO to the store to return them...goddamn immigration!!!

So this is a goodbye to the original pair and a HELLO to the brand spanking new pair. Now if only I could get a cleaned up version of my vintage YSLs. (Sorry, I like to talk about them at all times.)

Monday, December 17, 2007

A date has been predicted

I know I had a date set before, um, yeah that was December 8th but now I have an end in sight. New date and hopefully the last. This is January 10/11 if not sooner!! So I will either be long gone to my love of NY or I will be stuck here with no more NY options processing my work/holiday visa to London. Happy that I have an end in sight. First feeling of happiness in awhile. Whether it works out or not at least there's an end.

I feel great today, not sure why but most likely because I have a date to be "attempting" to go back to NYC!!! I have faith that this will all work out. I was upset and angry last night because I get moody sometimes (always) and now I'm excited about my bright future and my job and could care less about anything else. I think I may be bi-polar, my brother diagnose this when I was very young.

Yeah to me possibly being back in my fair city by the first week of January!!!

For the love of Buddha.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

At a crossroad, which path to take...

So last year around this time, I went through a "thing" and for some unforeseen reason I am at that exact place again and I think that the outcome will be exactly the same. The more things change, the more things stay the same. I am never the one, why am I back here again when I worked so hard to get out. I feel like a sadist sometimes, it's like I want this shit to happen to me because I obviously have a choice and I always choose what's wrong for me.

I need to get out, out of T.O. and away from all this bad, so much bad. If not New York then London. That's why I have to get out. Yes that means I am running away from my problems but that's the only solution I can seem to find.

I am going to see stuff in the next couple of weeks that I don't want to, let's see how I deal...probably with some bad, bad things to ease the pain. Or I can just hide and then I won't have to see these things that I don't want to see.

This sounds so dramatic but I am bitter, feel pathetic and lost and I need to be settled. I need a break, I need someone to give me a goddamn break. My heart and head hurt, from so many reasons, from too many reasons. I need a break.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

This is Obviously What My Parents Did to Me

Funny because there is a picture of me on my first birthday with my eyes rolled at the camera which embodies...whatever!

Friday, December 14, 2007


I've decided I hate Americans today. They cause so much grief in my life. Because they couldn't confirm my social security number they decided to just close my bank account, with money left in it and mail me a cheque. They're retarded. But I still want to live there, well New York City which is acceptable.

I am quite hungover, I turn bitter when I'm hungover. I am supposed to be working from home but I'm lying around and I hate pitching media, I feel like a life sucks today.

What I need to stop when drunk:
  • Stop harassing people by text or phone
  • Falling
  • Drinking more
  • Not remembering
I'm going to go lie down some more and lie about pitching media in my pitch report today.

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Bobble Head Wavelength

I would like to state that I saw this picture of MK the bobble head after I wore this outfit. I am too a bobble head!

My Bike, My Dream, My Lost Wingmen

I miss my bike, my beautiful bike that was rusted, with a basket and BMX handlebars where the brakes didn't work. I miss it so much, it was the love of my life this summer as many know and my brother unfortunately sold it when I moved to NY. Booo!!! Everytime I rode it I had a huge smile on my face!!!
This couple is perfection, I want to be them when I grow up!! Well, minus the blond hair and the non-asianness of the woman. But totally the style of both and see, she's little and he's big.

So, so, so many hot Janet-type boys in NY, all dirty, needing a shower and totally unkempt in that way I love so much. According to my cousin, a little Asian like me, liking this certain "type" of guy (the type shall not be named as the type is now an insult) is an anomaly in NY...rumour has it that Asians in NY don't really dig this "type" of boy...hmmm!! Maybe in T.O. too? But alas, I needed a wingman and all of mine were in T.O. but they were still fun to look at indeed.

Unconditional Love

Everyday, my love for the greatest Chan (pronounced Shawn, please don't fight me on this) Marshall grows deeper and deeper. Beautiful woman, beautiful soul, beautiful voice, beautiful lyrics, beautiful pain. So simple, music stripped down to its bare essentials.

Funny, in this picture she reminds me of so many women in New York, obviously strolling around East Village, LES and Willyburg but so many beautiful women with their equally beautiful men. Ahh, how we all dream to be hip, successful, stylish, in love and living in NYC. Oh wait, maybe that's just my dream.

Once I wanted to be the greatest
No wind or waterfall could stall me
And then came the rush of the flood
Stars of night turned deep to dust

I want to be a good woman
And I want for you to be a good man
And this is why I will be leaving
And this is why I can't see you no more

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

My Loves

I am going to post my loves since I've literally had about 5 people in the past week tell me I'm bitter and way too cynical, so here goes and just to make everyone happy, I'll post more loves than hates even though that's so unrealistic:
  1. Vintage: shoes, boots (especially my vintage YSL boots), heels, bags, jeans, dresses, et. al.
  2. Polar bears (seriously though)
  3. Stars in the sky not the famous, human ones
  4. The moment you realize that it's ALWAYS brains over beauty
  5. Looking at anyone aged between 19-22 and thinking thank God
  6. Trebuchet MS, Verdana and Garmond (yes the fonts in Word)
  7. Track changes in Word
  8. Google searching and Wikipedia
  9. Waking up beside the person you adore, realizing neither of you has anything to do and staying in bed, chit chatting, dozing, etc. for hours on end
  10. Chloe bags
  11. Finishing a tedious article/project and getting an A or being praised by your boss.
  12. Finding your hairdresser
  13. Girls nights actually my girlfriends in general
  14. My family
  15. Chomsky (again, seriously)
  16. Finally finding someone you adore and think is the loveliest human on earth because it gives you faith in the human race
  17. Cat Power (I channel Chan 24/7, well maybe not the nervous breakdown phase)
  18. Tokion and Nylon
  19. New York City
  20. The feeling you get once it all works out because you've had a bad year that's involved: being in jail, losing a license, going into debt, being dumped and getting really hurt, moving countries, getting deported and being homeless for three months. Once it all wraps up, once the year ends, that feeling of survival, of ending is so bittersweet that you recognize that nothing will ever be taken for granted again. Haven't felt it yet but I know it'll feel so good once it all works out.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007


Top 10:
  1. People who do not know the difference between your and you're, their, there and they're, to and too and its and it's.
  2. Journalists that hang up on me when all I'm trying to do is give them a story and help them do their job
  3. Stupid people at the ATM/ABM.
  4. People who think that Public Relations is a party planning, "fun" job - ladies beware, it's literally bitch work, I am a bitch to my clients, to my managers, to journalists, etc. and we receive no credit for what we do. Plus we are called spin doctors so everyone hates us and we get paid shitty for the first 5 years of our career!! (This is all agency side by the way) Screw Samantha Jones for her glamourizing PR!!
  5. Ladies who still wear low-rise, flared/bootcut jeans.
  6. People who wear America Apparel as outfits as opposed to basic items or one-offs and people who copy the mannequins at Urban Outfitters. Doing both these things do not make you cool nor do they give you style!!
  7. People in neon.
  8. People who wear black, horn-rimmed glasses with NO lenses.
  9. People who try to look so different that they end up looking stupid.
  10. People with horseshoes up their asses!

Monday, December 10, 2007

My NY Loves

So before I got so rudely deported due to stupid visa reasons, I was able to explore New York the way any non-tourist should. With 2.5 weeks of unemployment, I was able to do things that most can't do when vacationing. I went to the MOMA, checked out the plentiful diners, discovered lovely boutiques, avenues and streets and of course, shopped. These are the loves I discovered...

Daha @ 175 Orchard, just south of East Houston.
I can't even talk about this store as it sends shivers down my spine!! After viewing an amazing apartment, I stumbled upon this vintage shoe store which for me was literally like walking into heaven. I proceeded to scramble to the size 5 section when the owner asked me if I was a 5. I replied yes and she let me know in a sort of whisper about a pair of vintage YSL boots that she had in the back. I gasped and told her to run and grab them and while she was carrying them out in her hand, I already had tears in my eyes, it was a love that I have yet to feel for a real person. LOVE at first sight indeed!!

Whole Foods at East Houston & 2nd Ave. (my 2nd home)

Orchard at East Houston
St. Mark's Place
These boots at Barney's Co-op
This lovely Marc Jacobs bag from Barney's main floor - I touched, I put on my shoulder, I slowly left crying.

New Tats, New Mantras

So I want a new tattoo, one that is in sanskrit, from my neck that reads downward as per Victoria "Posh" Beckham. When lying down, it will read from left to right as that's the way sanskrit reads so when standing, you will have to tilt your head, not that anyone will be able to decipher it anyways. I am trying to decide between two things:

Option 1: Buddhist Mantra

असतोमा सद्गमय। तमसोमा ज्योतिर् गमया। मृत्योर्मामृतं गमय॥

"lead me from non-truth to truth; lead me from darkness to light; lead me from mortality to immortality"

Option 2: Buddhist Noble Eightfold Path - the way to end suffering (still need to get translated)

Right View
Right Intention
Right Speech
Right Action
Right Livelihood
Right Effort
Right Mindfulness
Right Concentration

Bobble Heads

Totally did this neo-grunge look with my cheaper than thou red and black lumberjack, flannel top with gold chains a dripping!! Obviously added my spicy, always a bit slutty flair with black, booty shorts and my most beautiful YSL vintage, over-the-knee boots!! God I love dirtiness!! Me & MK ... totally on same style wavelength ... le sigh!

I love the Olsen twins for many reasons but the most predominant one being that they're under 5'2" and weigh under 100 lbs. They also have that whole, neo-grunge, unwashed look going on that I love so much. Go forth skinny, little waifs with big round heads...wonder why I love so much?

The Reason Being

So even though I feel this whole fashion/gossip/random post blog thing is totally cliche, past its time and been done I have been convinced by many to start one. I am in the process of re-adjusting my life and feel that a career change may be desperately needed.

I feel that a move from PR to journalism may be in the works so obviously having a blog will look great in my portfolio along with my contributed articles.

So here I am and here I go. Just a little forum for me to post my daily thoughts and anecdotes about my crazy, drama-ridden life, Hollywood, gossip and of course, fashion - my likes, my dislikes and my peeves!